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Qadishtu Walking

dawn's journey......sacred sexuality, power exchange, poly, motorcycles, general thoughts on my adventure that is life

Medicine Card about Qadishtu

I've been in a funky mood since getting triggered at our event BTL last week. We had people show up from another event to tell us how we were doing our event was wrong, and they did it in front of about 100 people that were in our class, 'Ask Us the Hard Shit'....

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Qadishti Quickies

So....one of the things i had wanted to do for years, after it was suggested by a POTQ graduate...was to record a podcast called 'Qadishti Quickies'.... i tried it. i didn't like it. It was flat. i'm used to recording with my husband and have done so for almost 10...

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Qadishti Spanking

i had a Tantra meetup scheduled for tonight. 16 marked as going. Only 1 person showed up. His name was Mike and he was probably in his 60's. We had a long conversation and i found out that he's been giving spankings to people for decades. People find him on a website,...

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Ishtar has wings

More than a few years ago, i had this vision (i don't even remember the details) that i should be working with a Goddess with Wings. i tried Isis and a few others and they just didn't feel right. i also knew that it was supposed to be a Goddess for Sacred Sexuality....

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What is a Qadishtu/Qadishti?

Here is a great description of Qadishtu.....on this website they are also trying to sell a pendant and this is the description they use....but it's still a great one. I cut out the part of them describing the pendant. (though i may end up buying a pendant like this....

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Qadishtu – Teaching

The more i think about it, the more it seems that my Qadishtu path is going to be about teaching. i'm ok with that...partly. i love teaching. i love sharing experience. i love reading on specific topics to learn more. But, at some point, i'd like to experience more. i...

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Making love makes more love…..

"Tantra says sex can change your life. Awareness during sex opens the heart. It softens the hearts of men and dissolves their anger. It strengthens the heart of women and exorcises their fear. It feeds you what you need. The essence of tantra is not the fancy ritual...

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Qadishti Training

Well, there really isn't much out there in the way of training to be a Qadishti. Many of us kind of create our own thing. Inara, from Temple of the Red Lotus, used to have some online training. But, she's traveling now, so i don't think it's available anymore....

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Qadishti Women’s Circle

So, this is how i'm re-branding the 'Jill Party' that i've facilitated at a kink event. Like i've mentioned before....i have a desire to host these at various adult events. Though, if the event thinks they are too exclusive (vulva owners only), then i'll just have...

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Red Tantra

So, i'm reading this book titled 'Red Tantra' ...it's talking about how orgasms are a gift of the Goddess, to connect with the Universe. I so get this. Red Tantra is a little different than most Tantra's. Most Tantra paths that you hear about, at least in the Western...

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‘Being’ Qadishtu

So, there are 3 goals that i can think of at the moment with my Qadishtu path 'Be' Qadishtu. What this means is that i start living by the standards i set for myself for being a Qadishtu. i'm in the process of writing these guidelines and codes of coduct. These are...

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Qadishtu thoughts….

Still doing a lot of thinking about my Qadishtu path. Listening to a book right now with some ideas that i'd really like to put in practice. She is talking about somatic counseling. i've been lucky enough to have had a somatic counselor and have wanted to follow in...

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Qadishti Priestess…next steps

So, what does being a Qadishti Priestess mean to me? and what am i going to do next on my path? .....I ask myself. Good question, dawn. What is next? My idea is to keep studying Sacred Sexuality in its many forms. Whether books, classes or online training that doesn't...

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Qadishti Priestess vs Leather Woman

  I've been struggling over what my next step is on my spiritual path....or better yet, my soul path. Recently, I was posting to my '101 in 1001' facebook group and it slammed home for me. '101 in 1001' means 101 goals in 1001 days. These are things that I need to do,...

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Qadishtu work at Camp

Last weekend, we road our motorcycles to Indiana, to an event called 'Twisted Tryst'. What an amazing event! It's not the first time we've attended this event and for those into woo and being outdoors and are ok with seeing some edgy stuff, this is the event for you!...

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The Squeaky Wheel

What's the saying 'the squeaky wheel gets the oil'....which means the person that talks the most/loudest or complains the most, gets the attention   But, do you really want to be a squeaky wheel? Constantly asking for things?   To me if i'm having to squeak, then...

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Teaching Tantra

So....I've signed up for this Tantra course, so that I can teach tantra. Funny thing is, I've been teaching sacred sexuality/tantra  for many years. I was all gung-ho about this Tantra course, paid for it, and since being out of work you'd think I would have...

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Aging as a Qadishtu

I am Qadishtu....a practitioner of sacred sexuality. I believe in the healing power of sex and that we wouldn't have been given these enjoyable parts of our anatomy if we weren't supposed to have fun with them. With that said, I'm getting older. And even though my sex...

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Tomboy (part 2)

So, I've been thinking about that revelation that I may still be a tomboy, that I wrote about yesterday. Am I? Today I had the opportunity of getting my hands dirty working on my motorcycle, but I watched my guy friend do the work instead. I talked about it with him,...

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Tomboy?

I heard someone use the word 'tomboy' lately and it reminded me that that's how i used to classify myself. I was raised with my younger brother, and 3 boy cousins. Though i have 3 half sisters, we weren't raised together. And though I have about 30 girl cousins, we...

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Qadishtu Work

Last Saturday, I was able to put my skill as a Qadishtu to work. I was at a kink party and someone I've worked with before needed a session of sacred touch. She's been going through a rough patch and really needed some help. I'm glad we were able to make it work out....

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The Liar in Our Head

I read a book over the weekend and something in it struck me….   The voice in our head can be a liar, and usually is. And all of us have this lying voice in our head. So, even though we present something as ‘truth’, it can still be a lie even though the voice in our...

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Sacred Sexuality (part 2)

So, after writing yesterday's blog and sleeping on it and then while finishing listening to a book this morning 'American Gods' and starting to listen to a Wiccan book....I figured out why it is that I'm wanting to move forward on my path of sacred sexuality - it's...

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Sacred Sexuality

There is a meetup that I hold at The Space once a month; the Tantra Meetup. At this meetup I teach a lot of basics with Sacred Sexuality, Tantra and other sexuality modalities. Some of these classes are about breathing, chakras, mindfulness, and other basic topics....

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Things are slower here

So....I'm back on the Eastern Shore for a visit, and it always strikes me how much slower things are here. We certainly do a lot in the couple of days i'm here, but we actually get to sit around and just chill a lot as well. My life back in Ohio just isn't like this....

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More Motorcycle Stuff

I'm having a really hard time finding stuff for my motorcycle, let alone stuff for women. All the accessories seem to be skulls and crosses....which are so not my thing. If i google 'women riders', it usually brings back all kinds of pictures of half-naked girls...

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Bad Ass Grandma

I think my new motto is going to be ‘Bad Ass Grandma’ aka ‘B.A.G.’ I found it on a website that was recommended to me from another lady biker for women’s accessories. They have t-shirts and patches and other things that say ‘OLD B.A.G.’ I’m going to drop the old part...

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Confidence is Sexy

I've heard this a couple of times now....'Confidence is sexy' ...and I must say that I know it works for me. I had a boyfriend in highschool and I used to tease him, telling him that he was arrogant. He'd reply, 'I'm not arrogant, but I am confident'. And damn if it...

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Weight Loss & Running

My weight is stalled once again. How frustrating. It tends to stall at this exact weight each time. So, I take a day off my way of eating and try to shock my body into losing weight. It used to work. It doesn’t now. Instead, I gain back a couple of pounds and then...

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Upgrading the Motorcycle

I found a motorcycle yesterday that really spoke to me as my forever bike. But, I just bought one and it would be a pain in the butt to buy that one and then try to sell mine. I still have the Honda in the shed that I sold, but haven’t completed the transaction on...

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More on Depression….

Well, son of a bitch......some of this stuff just grips me and i don't know what to do with it....   My husband and i were off to get ice-cream this evening....it's cheat day.....and was flipping stations on Sirius radio and he stopped on a station that was having an...

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Scary morning on the bike

  What a scary morning....Dan (my husband) left on his bike this morning (the first sunny day in days), jumping on 270 N to go to work. i jumped on my bike and though it's faster, I won't do 270 especially during rush hour traffic. As I start to take the road that...

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Celebreties and Depression

I'm watching 'Table Top', a youtube blog by Wil Weaton (Of Star Trek Next Generation fame), where he plays boards games with other stars. He breaks down the game into bite sizes and teaches you how to play the game. This is my go-to blog when I buy a new board game....

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Food as fuel

I am not a foodie. I'm a food addict, but not a foodie. I love food, and don't know when to stop eating. If I could eat gluten, there is no way I would have lost the 80 pounds I've lost. I was only able to lose this weight once I became gluten intolerant. I used to...

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Running a 5k

So, like I said in a previous post.....I'm craving running a 5k again. I've only officially run 100%, 1 race before and that was before my surgery. I'd like to either beat my fastest time or run a complete race. I'm actually ok with run/walking and beating my best...

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Totally frustrating day that turned out ok

I was totally stressed out over the last week...... Someone had 'hired' me to officiate a renewal of vows. I talked to her on the phone over memorial day weekend and everything seemed good to go. She wanted it to be a subtle pagan ceremony and didn't want God...

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Longing….

I've had this deep sense of longing since having that dream the other night. I look at his picture and long to see him again. I haven't experienced this since mine and Dan's relationship changed from friends to lovers. I had this longing for him for many years. And...

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Loving in a Dream….

I had to process this a little before I could write about it.... Yesterday, I was at work and getting ready to make a call. I call so many people that I always write the person's name down before making the call, so that I don't accidentally address them by the wrong...

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Conscious Sex

Tonight I lead the Tantra meetup group once again. We meet monthly at The Columbus Space. At this one there were 8 people and all had been to The Space before, so we were able to talk about kink and poly as well as being conscious for it all. We talked about...

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Not sure what to do with myself….

It's rare that I have a full day off. I've been chillin and pretty much just lazing around. It feels weird. I found a new season of Super Natural on Netflix, so I started binging that. Then, I went out and walked a couple of miles. I cooked lots of food for lunches at...

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Oh so lucky….

Is it luck? or hard work? that has me where i am today? Or a little of both? My husband and i were just talking about how lucky we are. Here we are sitting outside a coffee shop in the breeze, reading and journaling. It's beautiful out here. Just a little chilly, but...

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Craving a run….

Craving a run….

i've really been craving a good long run. Unfortunately, i screwed up my back last November and put off going back tot he physical therapist. By February, my husband was tired of me moaning and groaning all the time and not being able to sleep. My back would lock up...

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Motorcycle Mama

I've been one motorcycling mama over the last week! 51 years old and still in my first year of learning to ride. Saturday, we rode to Detroit. Stayed there over the weekend. Rode around while also presenting at a kink event. Monday (Memorial Day) we decided to ride...

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Revamping Qadishtu Walking

Revamping Qadishtu Walking

I know there were people that used to keep an eye on my blog. The problem is that i created it on my Mac and it uses a specific program. I can't work on it any other way. So, i decided to change it to wordpress so that i could work on it anywhere. Plus, wordpress has...

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