So….one of the things i had wanted to do for years, after it was suggested by a POTQ graduate…was to record a podcast called ‘Qadishti Quickies’….
i tried it. i didn’t like it. It was flat. i’m used to recording with my husband and have done so for almost 10 years with our podcast, ‘Erotic Awakening’. There just isn’t a flow to my recording.
But, if i’m going to embrace this path, maybe i should try it again. Maybe some music playing while i’m talking would help. it might be worth a try. But, i have so many other projects that i’m actually excited about, i’m not sure that i want to put the time into this.
i would take the ‘quickies’ to my new facebook group, but there are only 3 members on it. i want a larger audience.
i could do it on fetlife, but then it’s only fet audience. i want it to reach further.
i have to give this some though. How can i reach people? Why do i want to reach people? Probably because some people don’t know this is a valid spiritual path, or because some people are already following a similar path and don’t know it or don’t have words for it. It feels like that’s the answer. Not sure.
i had a Tantra meetup scheduled for tonight. 16 marked as going. Only 1 person showed up.
His name was Mike and he was probably in his 60’s. We had a long conversation and i found out that he’s been giving spankings to people for decades. People find him on a website, he didn’t say which one, and he delivers their spankings; some men, some women. He travels around the world and has people in most of the places he stops at, that he spanks.
Talking with him, hearing how he does service topping, hearing how he doesn’t do it for sex and sticks with what they negotiate ahead of time…..he’s a Qadishti and doesn’t know it. He treats this as sacred.
It surprises me when i find people like this, that have been doing this sacred service for years and aren’t aware that they are very special. They just do it as a way of giving service to those in need. He said that sometimes it’s a wife whose husband is away (i wouldn’t be able to do that if the husband doesn’t know, but i understand the need/drive), sometimes it’s someone with a lot of responsibility that needs ‘punishment’, sometimes it’s someone that has fetishized it and want’s to roleplay, sometimes it’s someone that just needs to cry. Wow. All of this is service/spiritual topping.
Well, if nothing else, i shared some vocabulary with him. i don’t think he’s interested in researching anything, but if he ever is, he’ll have some words to use.
So today i was at a great event….and some people i’ve worked with on my Qadishti path were there. i got to talk to them about the next step on my path.
Two of the people i talked to are involved with POTQ1 and i was talking to them about bringing it back to Columbus. Maybe i didn’t ask the question right, because i don’t think they really understood what i was asking….but the conversation is started. i’ll detail it out in text or emails later.
Another person i confided in about my interest in moving forward said he was surprised that i waited this long. i told him that i had always wanted to do this with my partner, but he’s on another path. But, i think i’d be good at this and wanted to dive in and really embrace this path again. That i thought i’d be good at it …that i wanted to embrace it with more passion and even get into the deep, dark parts of the path….and he said with no hesitation that he absolutely agreed. Wow. That really boosted my energy towards this…. To have an outside person, someone that i really consider a friend, think that i’d be really good at this. i’m pretty sure i used to be….and over the years i still teach energy and tantra and such….but to really dive into it. His eyes even lit up at the idea.
And the research i was doing over the last couple of days….it fired up my interested again as well. i got that excited feeling of learning something new. i love that feeling. That’s what’s been missing.
More than a few years ago, i had this vision (i don’t even remember the details) that i should be working with a Goddess with Wings. i tried Isis and a few others and they just didn’t feel right. i also knew that it was supposed to be a Goddess for Sacred Sexuality. For weeks i looked at google images and finally found one that worked for me. It was Freya.
i tried Freya on. i liked it. i did an ecstatic dance and invoked Frey to ask her why she came to me if i was looking for a Goddess of Sacred Sexuality. She laughed and said, how do you think i got my amber necklace from the dwarves? i slept with them. i am absolutely a Goddess of Sex. Many people focus on the Goddess of War, Valkirie aspect, but there is so much more.
So, i worked with Freya for a very long time. i still work with her some days, but it’s very rare now.
Today, i was doing some research on Qadishtu/Qadishti/Sacred Secuality for a new facebook group i started….and came across this ….
And her animals are lions.
i’ve also worked with Sekhmet because of her lion aspects.
So…what if i was supposed to have worked with Ishtar? i know a few that do work with her and her other name, Inanna. Some have even named themselves after her.
Before, i tried to make myself work with her (before i even knew she had wings). It didn’t work. I’m not sure i even recognized she had wings. Freya did and Freya spoke to me.
Now, i’m seeing the wings of Ishtar/Inanna and it feels like i’m supposed to work with her.
We’ll see how it goes.
This poem to her that I found (in another language and then translated) really spoke to me when i found it today…
Prayer by Ishara Labyris, Ps. Dea
Who pierces the sky with its soft light
Flame of Life
Mixing with the rain
To create the Rainbow Necklace
And to walk between the worlds
Ishtar of the Sea
To the thousand river daughters
Noisy or secret
O Mystery of the deep waters
of the original Matrix
Rich roots, green tops
Tree of Life, shadows and lights
Who descends under Earth
Under the roots, under the stones
Crossing the Seven Gates of Hell
Dying and reborn
Lover of all, wife of no
Freedom of love for everyone
Beauty that heals hearts
Prostitute to the sacred gift
In this place be venerated
In this place be thanked
I beg you, Ishtar
With all the beating of my heart
Here is a great description of Qadishtu…..on this website they are also trying to sell a pendant and this is the description they use….but it’s still a great one. I cut out the part of them describing the pendant. (though i may end up buying a pendant like this. It’s beautiful) 🙂
A long time ago before we worshipped the big ‘G’ God in his masculine composition most worshipped the Earth Mother. The Great Earth Mother Goddess was holy and sacred, in alignment with the cycles and seasons of the Earth. ‘She Was The Mother Of All Life’.
Women’s bodies were fashioned from her to perform acts of creation. This design is mirrored in all of nature from the animals to the crops, rivers, land and seasons. Women’s bodies were blessed and hallowed; the female form was honored and valued. The human female was the divine image of the feminine aspect of God; She was Creator, nurturer and giver of life, she was Holy and held in reverence.
Qadishtu was a consecrated class of Temple Priestesses/ aka Temple prostitutes/ who were highly trained, and worshipped the fertility Goddess Astarte. The Temple prostitute was an accomplished and skilled Priestess who excelled in the arts of sexuality, pleasure, and honoring the Mother Goddess in all her forms. Sex was viewed as a natural and heavenly act, which brought forth new life, joy and mirrored the fertility of the Earth. Men sought out the Sacred Priestesses of the temple because it was understood that this sexual act was an act of worshipping the Goddess. The priestess became the vessel into which the Great Goddess Astarte entered and the resulting union produced amazing states of ecstasy allowing men of earth to move their awareness upwards to the heavenly host via the Temple Priestesses teachings. For this honor to the Goddess, men paid the temple very well.
Archaeologists who discovered statues like the Neolithic Venus of Willendorf, suggest that the Great Mother Goddess was worshipped as far back as 40,000 BCE. In ancient times these holy women were held in the highest esteem. The temple priestess became the representation of the Goddess in physical form.