While in Tulsa, we stopped by a place called ‘Woods of Peace’. It was a beautiful place, with litle cabins, hiking trails and a labyrinth. Beautiful. (Dan and i might be creating something like this at some point, but more on that later)
When, we were introducing ourselves to the person running the place, Dan waved at me to introduce myself and my path. I said ‘Pagan’, because i didn’t want to have to explain ‘Qadishti’. But, the word that popped into my head that i wish i had used was ‘Earth Spiritualist’. I hadn’t even heard of that word before.
Then, when i was walking the labyrinth, it mentioned to me that i’m still a Qadishti, but i’m to use the energy of the Earth to power my sexuality. That just felt so right. I need to work with the Earth. She will feed my sexuality. Though, i’m not really sure how to explain that part. Something like….working with her gives me strength to be who i am. And if i can remember that, living life will be so much easier.
Since i hadn’t heard of the word before, i decided to look it up before using it. It seems that there is an international organization that uses this word. But, their website is pretty empty with no traffic on it and not much information.
Probably the only thing in the info i’ve added below is the sustainable living. I just don’t see it as possible. I know people that do it and i try to recycle when i can…but for the grand sceme, i just don’t have the ability or desire.
And since no one is really using these websites…..and i agree with most of what it says, i think i can use the term when out in ‘vanilla’ public.
Otherwise it’s ‘Wiccan Trained Shamanistic Qadishti’ …..or something like that.
According to the website on Earth Spiritualism:
Earth Spiritualism is an inclusive nature-based interfaith Religion providing Ministry to its members and interested members of the community including regular meetings and study groups to engage in, promote and encourage all aspects of the Earth Spiritualist philosophy and Spiritual practice including kindness, respect and a harmonious co-existence between nature, the Earth, and all living beings.
Ancient Culture & Traditions
Our Religion is kindness. With our roots in ancient nature-based Spiritual philosophies and traditions from around the world. Earth Spiritualism merges the old with the new, to provide a non-dogmatic Spirituality for a modern world.
We unite in friendship with world Religions and nature traditions and cultures whose beliefs align with ours for the benefit of world peace.
Our Core Beliefs
Our core beliefs are the three founding principles at the heart of all that we do:
Respect for Self
Respect for nature, the earth and all living things
Our belief system is founded on the natural health and wellbeing of mind, body & Spirit and living in harmony with nature, the Earth and all living things.
The Six Principles of Daily Life
The study of The Six Principles of Daily Life provides a path to inner peace, happiness and wellbeing, re-connecting not only to nature but also to the inner Self, restoring any parts which may have been lost along the way.
The Six Principles are:
The six principles are studied individually. Each may be studied at any time, in no particular sequence, as and when you are drawn to.
We believe that a connection to nature and the land is fundamental to the health & wellbeing of mind, body & Spirit.
Our members practice and encourage sustainable living, the practice of living in harmony with nature, the Earth and all living things in all aspects of daily life including sustainability of the natural and built environments.
Our members practise and promote natural remedies and natural healing methods. However we don’t deny the miracles of modern medicine either. We advocate an integrative approach to health and wellbeing at all times.
The Universal Consciousness
We don’t specifically worship the God, Goddess or specific Deities from other Religions, but we don’t deny their existence either. Our attitude is one of respect. We believe that anything is possible unless proven otherwise.
We believe in a Higher Power, known also as The Universe or Divine Being, a Universal Life Force which connects nature, the Earth and all living things through a Universal Consciousness. Our Deity is nature and the Earth.
Respect to Others
We believe that Religious and Spiritual beliefs (or none) are a personal choice and we don’t require our followers change their existing beliefs or faith in order to study our teachings.
We respect the right of everyone to their own beliefs and we unite and welcome those from all beliefs and faiths or none, whose beliefs are based on kindness.
We believe in karma, the afterlife and the unseen world.
Our teachings, meetings and events provide an inspiring personal & Spiritual development path to inner peace, happiness and wellbeing.
Our members conduct regular meetings, study groups, workshops and events to promote and encourage all
We welcome and unite people from all faiths or none, with an interest in personal & Spiritual development to study our teachings.
Our inspiring personal and Spiritual development program provides a path to inner peace.
Recently, I’ve been thinking that maybe I’ve already learned everything I need to know. Yes, I know how arrogant that type of thinking is, but I don’t feel like I’ve learned anything new in a long time. At least anything that would help my spiritual path. I mean, i know there are technical things I could go out and learn or a new skill, but that’s not really what I’m talking about, or is it?
I took the tantra certification, hoping to learn something new. I didn’t. It’s stuff that I’ve been teaching for years. It was actually very frustrating for me. I keep wanting to find a teacher instead of always being a teacher.
I’ve been craving the experience I had during my first 10 years of this journey. Not all of it, because some of it was painful, but we found outdoor festivals that were sex positive and I found amazing people to work with on my healing journey and my sex positive journey. I’m just not finding new experiences like that anymore.
Until recently. I’m not sure what happened, except for the fact that I’m trying some things that are out of my element. That’s the trick, isn’t it? I’m so comfortable in the communities I spend my time in, that there don’t seem to be any big things for me to learn. So, I need to step out of my comfort zone.
I’m doing that.
Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve driven to Detroit on my own to teach a mindfulness class at an intensive, and though I knew a few people there, I didn’t know most of the submissives present…..AND I drove in the snow/ice all the way up there. The 3 1/2 hour drive, took 7 hours. It was rough, but I did it. I felt obligated to be there and that gave me the drive to be there.
The person that had created this intensive, had copied it off of the ones I’ve been running for 7 years. She put her own flavoring to it, but it was still a good event. And while there, I learned a few things. For one, crocheting while listening, helps my attention a lot! I’m going to have to keep that in mind and not take it personally when people are doing that in my audience when I’m presenting.
I also learned that good hugs…..are good. I need to hug more. I usually don’t, because I’m protecting my personal space and don’t feel like hugging everyone. But, I had 2 people give me hugs while I was there and it just felt really really good. They were truly happy to have me there and shared amazing heart hugs with me. I want to offer that to others and need to practice more often. I don’t need to protect my personal space if I’m projecting love.
I’ve also decided to become a vendor again. This time I’ll be doing it on my own. I had a lot of Dan’s help last time and I’m sure he’ll be helping out a little bit this time, but it will be as he wants to, not because he needs to. I’m having fun with this. I’ve found a win-win situation in vending items that others are making but don’t have time or are too sick to vend for themselves at the moment. This is going to be my creative project and I really see it taking off. If it does, I won’t have to go back to corporate america.
AND…..I’ve never thought of myself good with my hands….but I’m working with arcane and helping him create floggers. I’ve cut leather, create torque heads and now I’ve been on the lathe and created flogger handles. It’s been fun and I’ve done an great job! Now I just need to get faster.
I’ve also offered my time and services to Mr. Malaprop who also does wood items for kink events. I have no clue what type of help he might need, but I’m making myself more available for him.
So, there are still things for me to learn. I just need to step out of the communities that I’m so comfortable with……or at least look at them from different vantage points. That’s where I’m going to learn something new. New crafts, new skills and as with the hugs, new things for my spiritual path.
I’m having a really hard time finding stuff for my motorcycle, let alone stuff for women. All the accessories seem to be skulls and crosses….which are so not my thing.
If i google ‘women riders’, it usually brings back all kinds of pictures of half-naked girls draped over bikes. Or scantily clad girls riding bikes, which is so dangerous. But, not much information or products for women riders.
But, I just found a great website, not even sure how I found it. I think it was through a link on a motorcycle facebook group where I asked about women friendly items for my bike, aka no skulls!! So, I’m going to document some links here so that I don’t lose them.
In this article, it talks about how to pack for a long trip as a woman and took a few things into consideration that a man wouldn’t think of. And now i’m moving onto a link that was there about tips for women motorcyclists. Why couldn’t I find this article when I was actually looking for one before getting my bike?
And I’m finding all kinds of links to all kinds of forums. I didn’t know forums still existed. I thought it was facebook and reddit as my only options. NOT!
Tonight I lead the Tantra meetup group once again. We meet monthly at The Columbus Space. At this one there were 8 people and all had been to The Space before, so we were able to talk about kink and poly as well as being conscious for it all.
We talked about breathing, being present, and mindful when we are having sex.
It was really a great conversation.
And I want to document something that was said to me. I mentioned that at a swing club, people aren’t there to have conscious sex, that it’s more about the physical hiccup they call an orgasm. I talked about how I need a connection with the person, a possible ecstatic experience. There was a girl there that spends a lot of time at swing clubs and told me that i had to change my mind of what i think of them. And when i go back i need to go to just have fun. To just be there for me, not to go hunting. Dance, or play pool or something. And if there is someone that clicks with me is there, they will show up. That was very important for me to hear. To be the person I want to be and I’ll attract the person that I want to be with.
And I WANT to be with someone that believes in connecting energetically and spiritually as Divine partners….even if it’s just for that moment. Conscious sex. Conscious living.