Still doing a lot of thinking about my Qadishtu path.
Listening to a book right now with some ideas that i’d really like to put in practice. She is talking about somatic counseling. i’ve been lucky enough to have had a somatic counselor and have wanted to follow in his footsteps, but when he offered his class locally it was during the day while i was working. So, i didn’t get to take it 🙁
But, the ideas she talks about are things that i’ve done before. So, i’m thinking of putting another workshop together.
AND i just taught a class last week on being a survivor in a power exchange relationship. i’ve taught this class before, but with the political climate that seems to be so against women, it’s time to bring it back and teach it in more places. i’ve already had someone reach out from NYC that wants me to bring it there. Dan teaches this one with me and him sharing how he has dealt with a traumatized survivor that he helped turn into a thriver is very powerful.
More….there is more for me to study and more workshops and rituals for me to put together.
And it’s time for me to schedule the next POTQ2 (Path of the Qadishti) course for those that have graduated from POTQ1.
So, do I need to decide between being a Qadishti Priestess and a Leather Woman?
As a Qadishti Priestess my path would lead me to helping others as I already do. As a Leather Woman my path would lead me to helping others as I already do.
If I focus on being a Qadishti Priestess, I’ll probably take a few more sacred sexuality classes if I can find some that sound interesting and is something new for me. I’ll also schedule and teach POTQ2 and hold more Energy and Sacred Sexuality workshops. I might even look into being a Death Doula. Most of this will be done in the Leather/Kink world. Even the stuff at the Space, like the rituals I do, will take on a more sexual overtone.
If I focus on being a Leather Woman, I’ll probably join a Leather Women’s group that I’ve been looking at, and maybe attend WILL and maybe run for a title or 2 on my own. I’d put out a few more bids for presenting and being a judge.
Wow. As I type these things out….I can see/feel where my passion is. Both. But, I see it as ‘being’ Qadishti and living as a Leather Woman. I can be a Leather Woman with a Spiritual path of a Qadishti Priestess. I mean, how is it any different than being a Christian Leather Woman, or a Jewish Leather Woman. Oh…..there is a slight difference. Because it would be like being a Jewish Rabbi Leather Woman or Christian Clergy Leather Woman.
It can be done. But, the training and the next steps and the focus. Qadishti Priestess. It’s time to embrace it again and move forward. And I can do it as a Leather Woman.
It is funny, because all the Oracle and Tarot cards that I’ve been drawing lately have been telling me that I have the answer inside…that I already know the answer. The problem is, I keep thinking I’ve learned everything I need to know to be a Qadishtu. But it’s not true. There are many things I can learn and many things that I can do to help others live their lives as sexual beings.
So, * rubbing hands together * ….what’s next?
I’m betting it’s scheduling POTQ2 so that others can learn skills to be the Qadishtu’s and Qadeshes that speak to their hearts.
(side note….i think i’ve been resisting it because i really thought this would be something i’d be doing with my husband…he’s on a different path, though. So, i’ve been wanting to find someone else to walk this path with or to at least study with …and the Universe just hasn’t provided it. So I held off. But, I need to embrace the idea that this is a path I can walk alone.)
(side note #2…there are a couple of people using the title ‘Qadishti’ that I don’t want associated with me. I don’t want people to come across them and think I’m like them. But, i”m sure a lot of clergy feel that way about some clergy members of their chosen spiritual path. I will go out there and continue to be the ethical person that I am. )